It had to be a decision. It isn’t like I could just not post some days. I have a compulsion. I have a lot of compulsions in fact, and these don’t allow me to do things differently without a lot of thought. So, I have given this a lot of thought, and have come to the conclusion that posting to this blog six days a week is a bit much. Not that it has gotten too much for me. I like to read, and as I mentioned, I am compulsive. But I have this thought that it is too much in filling other people’s inboxes.
Plus I am afraid of running out of ideas. It hasn’t happened yet, but it could, and I don’t want to become repetitive. Above that, there are those days when I haven’t the energy to write. And then again, there are those days when I actually do have energy – which I should probably use to get things done, like organizing my house.
Thoughts on those days have left me feeling anxious, for what if I don’t have enough posts scheduled for the future to cover those days? That obsessive compulsive voice in my head would not let that go! It would be a failure to me, and failures always result in me wanting to hide. How could I hide, and write at the same time?
Above that, there is also vacation time in the summer – and the hope that some day, I will be able to get across the country to visit my mom. She can’t come here. She hasn’t the time off, and is much needed there. I have time – but I haven’t much money, and I do have a fear of leaving my animals, and being away from home. But I should go. Such things might also put me behind.
But it has to be a definite decision. I can’t, for instance, just decide to write when I feel like it, or when I have the time. No. That wouldn’t work for me at all.
So like a job, I have decided to post three days a week (three, because I could never work more than that without completely falling apart even at the best of times.) And more than that, I have decided on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays – an even schedule, with the weekends off.
That will give me time to clean, or knit, or organize, or renovate, or… without interrupting my posting schedule.
Probably I won’t stick to writing on those days, but at least I have decided on a posting schedule that I believe will work for me. The only thing is that I will likely keep writing a lot, and so some of the themes in my posts – like my one on Mother’s day – will be long gone before they are released.
But for all of that, I still think this is a good, and workable solution for me, and hope that it doesn’t cause too many issues.