My heart aches. My head hurts. I cry out to God – my hope is gone.
I want to reach into the pictures from before I lost her and pull her through, and never let her go again. But I can’t do that and it tears my heart all over again. I want my babies, and I can’t have them – and how do I live with that?
How do I keep going knowing this?
The future is filled with pain and I am terrified of it.