Autism: Emerging From Within
All of my life I have known there was something different about me. It was very rare for me to talk right up into my 20’s. Even now, at nearly 40, I struggle to speak a lot of the time. Others thought I was shy, but I knew that it was more a matter of connections. My thoughts were loud, and I could easily put them on paper, but it was often impossible for me to connect those thoughts into words to share with others.
Very recently, I was diagnosed with autism. I was told that I have an expressive language disability. That is the reason why I have been able to talk, but not able to share for most of my life. I also have multiple sensory issues, the most prominent being in food texture.
Secondary to my autism, I have also been diagnosed with a severe anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, depression, and some degree of obsessive compulsive disorder.
While I struggle to speak, I do love to write. I believe that I have a lot to share in my experiences on this planet, and hope that by sharing my story, others may be helped along the way.
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dustykate
August 4, 2015 at 2:01 pm
Poetry/writing often bypasses the brain as it comes directly from the heart, I believe anyway and that is where your lovely words certainly seem to stem from – good luck and happy life to you 🙂
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Walkinfaith925
August 4, 2015 at 3:56 pm
Thank you so much for your encouraging comment!
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Aspergers Girls
May 30, 2016 at 10:20 am
I am sam from everydayaspergers.com We have a kind community of folks with late age diagnosis on our community facebook page.I am @aspergersgirls on Twitter. Much love to you
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Walkinfaith925
May 30, 2016 at 1:58 pm
Thank you, Sam. I have been following you on Facebook for most of the past year, and have been often thankful for your insight, and for the community you have brought together there.
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Aspergers Girls
May 30, 2016 at 2:35 pm
super 🙂
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Actually Autistic Blogs List
December 30, 2016 at 10:33 am
Hi Walkinfaith,
Please let us know if you consent to how your blog is listed on our Actually Autistic Blogs List (anautismobserver.wordpress.com) or if you want the listing changed (if so, how).
Thank you.
Judy (An Autism Observer)
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Walkinfaith925
December 30, 2016 at 11:11 am
Yes, that looks good. Thank you.
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Aspie girl
April 15, 2018 at 11:33 pm
Wow! I didn’t even know what Asperger was until I was about 45. I thought I was a freak and was so ashamed of my hands flapping. It was extremely helpful to find out there are other people like me out there, and now I’m not embarrassed anymore. I was also selectively mute as a child, struggling to fit the images in my head into words. I also have anhedonia, insomnia, and alexethymia.
I also suffer from general anxiety, ocd, and my social phobia was so bad, I didn’t dare go to Mcdonald to order a burger. But I kind of got over it eventually. It was a struggle. Made it difficult to go for a job interview, deal with people on the job, and learn martial arts.
Anxiety and ocd bother me, Asperger itself doesn’t.
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overthehillontheyellowbrickroad
May 2, 2018 at 3:27 pm
My son, in his twenties, has a number of the symptoms you described about yourself. You are brave. I hope my son will be brave enough to face and talk about certain aspects of himself as well someday. He’s not ready yet.
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